See, remember that dream I had a while back? With the tournament that apparently has never finished? Yeah, trying to decide how best to finish that sonnuva betch. But, no, my muses have apparently gone somewhere lovely and warm for vacation, leaving me only with the thoughts of mad science to entertain me.

Speaking of which - though it has nothing to do with science really - I recently took a "What Org. XIII member are you most like" quiz. I know what most of you are thinking. "Well, there are good ones and wholly innaccurate ones!" Well, I was ready to trust this one, since it came up with my girlfriend as Demyx (which IS wholly accurate). However comma...I believe my trust was misplaced, or I should go through some new evaluations of myself.

See, I didn't come up as Demyx, or Xigbar (which I was actually expecting) or even Vexen (which was a far cry from my actual personality. I like blowing things up, not actually making science.) But I got Saix.

I'm still so very confused. I really am. I sat there, dumbfounded, for a good five minutes before I ran downstairs, got myself some milk, looked at my result again, proceeded to become so shocked yet again that milk sprayed out of my nose (don't worry, my computer was spared), and then sit there with Jasper (my new Vampire-Teddy) on my lap for a good six or seven minutes, unsure exactly of what I had just created in myself.

says that this will only truely occur when my heart is consumed by darkness and I become a nobody. I really am frightened, because she said 'when' and not 'if.' I mean...how long away is 'when,' anyway?

I know what the rest of you are thinking. "Oh, Shinju-san, that's silly! You're not going to become a heartless nobody! That's just a game."

I'm not sure what to say to you. After all, people wholly believe that Mario is a plumber, and have you ever seen him so anything plumber-esque? No, jumping into pipes does not count. After all, my father is a plumber, and I doubt he has ever found another dimension on the inside of a pipe.

To be fair about the whole Saix thing, one of my friends in England is very happy for me. She says Saix is her favorite nobody and Saix and Mansex are her favorite KH couple. I am a little uplifted that she feels in such a way about who I shall become when I am a nobody (I am still trying to figure out how you get Saix out of Megan, but we will deal when we come to it). Not sure how uplifted I am to be in a future relationship with a man whose got power-issues (he's ordering 12 people about like he's the king of England - inferiority complex much?) and whose name is an anagram of Mansex. After all...last thing I want is to come homee from a hard mission, kick off my shoes, and find my ex and my boyfriend going at it on the kitchen counter.

Ugh! I just scared myself. -eyetwitch- I need some milk.